Below are the 11 most recent journal entries recorded in adamantina's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, April 21st, 2004
5:46 pm	Just added a bunch of new auctions! http://cgi6.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewSellersOtherItems&include=0&userid=purplesuccubus&sort=3&rows=25&since=-1&rd=1 (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 20th, 2004
11:07 am	Screwing around again when I should be doing other things I'm just trying to get things ready for when the baby is born, so far I'm not doing a very good job. I will try to find any excuse not to clean. My goal is to finish my own room today, I wouldn't count on that though. I thought I would be bored not working, but I have found plenty to keep me busy. The baby's father should be home today from his trip, I have been waiting for him to get back to discuss some baby stuff. That conversation could go either way, we end up, not fighting, but sometimes not on the greatest terms. Oh well at least we don't hate each other. Last night I had to spend some time with my friend and her boyfriend, I am not very fond of the boyfriend, I think she knows that. They are pretty serious though, it's one of those situations where you just have to bite your tongue. However I am horrible at that, and I hate to do it. She is such a good friend though, and a good person, I don't want to lose her friendship or hurt her. I just think this guy is going to end up screwing her over in the end, and I wish she could see that. I really hope for her sake I am wrong but I don't think so. Sometimes I feel like who am I to judge since at this time I have no love life, and even when I did I didn't always make the right decisions. I guess everyone is entitles to their opinion. Current Mood: indifferent (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, April 16th, 2004
2:08 pm	See how evil you are Take this test to see how evil you are: http://web.tickle.com/tests/standard/evil.jsp To see my results:http://web.tickle.com/tests/standard/evil_result.jsp (Comment on this)
1:45 pm	Anything to avoid cleaning Well at my Doctors appointment on tuesday my doctor decided it was time for me to stop working. I had mixed feelings about that, I have three weeks left to go in the pregnancy. As much as I bitch about my job, all of my friends work there so its a lot of social time for me. I have a ton of stuff to do here at my house to get ready for the baby, but I am a huge procrastinator. Needless to say I've been spending a lot of time on line. I decided that if I want to purchase anything on line, then I have to earn the money on line, so I will probably be posting a lot of ebay auctions. I had my work baby shower on Tuesday night, they all thought I would be surprised, but I'm a little too smart for that. It was really nice, so many people were really generous. I am really lucky as far as the people I work with. I was a little not upset, but put off by one of my friends gifts though. I'll refer to her as materialista, she who has been my friend for almost 9 years, and one of my best friends. She went in on a gift with 4 people that cost 150.00. So less than 40.00 a piece. Now normally I would never figure something like that out because I don't keep score with friends that way. With her though I know if I ever did that she would be trashing me behind my back to our other friends. It's not as if she doesn't have the money either. The other people who went in with her are equally good friends however they either live alone or work part time basically they are on a tight budget. Materialista and I had been not getting along too well for quite awhile and that is basically her slap in the face. Really get over yourself, I keep telling myself I shouldn't even be friends with her anymore she is such a scorekeeper. That drives me crazy. As I said in previous posts I have trouble letting friends go even when I know its past time. Current Mood: calm (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 13th, 2004
8:26 am	Couldn't sleep I've been up since six, I hate it when you can't fall back to sleep. I did a little cleaning and laundry, but there is still more to do. I think tonight is my baby shower at work, it's supposed to be a surprise, but I have my suspicions. I am not really a big fan of the surprise party, I feel like you have to act like a goof unless you really are surprised. I don't think that happens very often. I keep checking my baby registry online like an obsessed animal, maybe thats not a good thing to have online. I get so excited though when someone buys something. How much does that say about my life. My baby to be's father is leaving this week to go home for a family obligation, I am not crazy about him leaving so close to my due date. Plus I hate it when he flies, actually I hate it when anyone I'm close to flies. I personally am not afraid to fly and I know plane travel is safer that automobile travel. It just makes me uneasy. Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Friday, April 9th, 2004
10:34 pm	Is it right to let friends go? I have been wrestling with this for awhile, I am the first on in my group of friends to be having a baby. Needless to say this has gotten me good and bad reactions, depending on the person. Most of my friends are between 24 and 32 I guess I am on the older end of the spectrum. Drinking and partying is a part of our social life, not out of control but defiantly there. I feel like I am being slowly excluded from some of my friends lives because I obviously can't do that. Quite frankly it just isn't as fun to be that drunk every weekend when you start to get older. I totally understand that when you have a baby or are pregnant, you are defiantly on different paths in life, and your friendship will probably cool down somewhat, but I would still expect someone who is one of your best friends to make an effort to still be involved in your life. My friend June, who I've been friends with for about 8 years is completely disinterested. I'm not sure if I should be offended or just accept the fact that she is just at a different time in life. She is my age and her boyfriend is about 5 years younger, I almost feel like she is going through a mid-life crisis. Why do I let this bother me so much, I have plenty of people to support me, and she is not someone I would ever go to in a crisis. Not that I don't feel like I could count on her but that's not her strength. I feel like we don't have anything in common right now and part of me says just let it go she is not worth it. The sentimental side of me thinks about all we have been through together, all we have done etc. and I kind of feel stuck. Sometimes I guess friends start to feel like family, even when you don't like them anymore they are still bound to you in some way. Friendships shouldn't be that way though, as my friend Max says friendships should not be work. I feel like this is a simple problem and I know the answer I just can't go through with it. Or am I overreacting and should I just put this relationship on the back burner until it heats up again? Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: tv: American Choppers (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 8th, 2004
9:52 am	Why don't men like to talk? I am curently 9 months pregnant, a little less than 4 weeks to go. The baby's father and I aren't togther, but we are on friendly terms. Last night we were talking, well I was talking and he was listening I guess. Our baby will be here in less than a month, and he seems almost apathetic, I know he cares but he acts like a brickwall. The situation overall isn't easy for either one of us, but I don't think him shutting me out is the answer. This is a huge event, and I know he is having problems dealing with his whole life, but he is so pessimestic. I am just frustrated because I can't get through to him, I think he really needs a friend right now. He is just working so hard on keeping me out. I try not to obsess about this because I know I can't do anything right now. I guess I just need to wait for the tides to change. Current Mood: disappointed (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 6th, 2004
4:00 pm	I think I am ready to get started Now that I have a little clue whats going on here I think I can get started. I feel like this is my new toy. I don't think I will let anyone who knows me know about this journal, I would rather have some anonymous interaction. I am the type who loves getting into other people's heads and finding out what they think. I am also here because the live journal audience from what I've seen seems to be alternative. I'm not really impressed with the in crowd, or I guess supposed normal people. Whenever I see a gothed out teenager walking home from school, I always smile and think good for them, they are not afraid to be themselves. I am a late bloomer in the goth scene I am almost 30 and just starting to pursue some different paths. I have decided to pursue wicca, which seems to be a very wide open scene from what I've read so far. I am looking for interaction with people who are considered strange and like it, especially in the Boston area. I just went to Manray http://www.manrayclub.com/ for the first time last year and really felt, this may sound stupid but I really felt at home with the crowd. I guess this is a start to what I'm doing here, I hope to chat with people of similar interests soon. Current Mood: content (Comment on this)
3:47 pm	I know this is boring I am starting to be impressed with myself, maybe I'm not as dumb as I thought, as a test I've posted two links. One is for the animal rescue site, each time you visit the site and click (up to once a day) food is donated to the animal shelter. The other wheresgeroge tracks dollar bills by their serial number, I just found this one today, and I thought it was a cool idea. http://www.wheresgeorge.com/ Current Mood: geeky (Comment on this)
3:41 pm	Testing some new things http://www.theanimalrescuesite.com/ (Comment on this)
10:36 am	I just realized what a loser I am on the computer Well this journal is off to a bad start since I can't figure out how to do much of anything except post an entry. I should have known from the beginning since it took me about 10 tries just to get a name. Now I have the plainest journal around because I don't know how to do any of the stuff to make this journal what I want it to be. If anyone who reads this has a clue let me know. Current Mood: confused (Comment on this)